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NIGHT

We play tug of war with the psyche
So our day to day is rather dicey
Reverie in the clouds would do nicely
But a maelstrom is way more likely
Were we here to suffer?
Or were we here to thrive?
Maybe we’ll find the reason why
When we touch the, we touch the
We touch the, we touch the

It’s major this time
I gotta be more sophisticated with rhymes
I’m gonna have a few critics hating on lines
(But I gotta move on, I just gotta move on
I just gotta move on)
It’s major this time
I gotta be more sophisticated with rhymes
I’m gonna have a few critics hating on lines
(But I gotta move on, I just gotta move on
I just gotta move on)

Who am I?
No, seriously, stop the beat
The definition wouldn’t lie with my current friends
It’s evident in the relationships I couldn’t mend
My lows are my highs, that’s when I feel free
The days are my valleys and the nights are my peaks
Hedonistic nights for lethargic days
It already feels like I’ve entered my grave
I call that man Danny, gave depression a name
He controls what I do, and everything that I say
Hanna’s the happiness, but she’s not here today
And from the looks of it, I think she’s staying away
So I give up hope, Danny’s all I need
He fucks up my dreams, I want eternal sleep
And I wanna show you how much he means to me
So I decorated my arms under my sleeves

All my tragedy, the masking had me get here
Hope my soliloquys don’t fall on deaf ears
Maybe I’ll get my flowers when I stop spitting
Once my curtain closes, that’s when the plot thickens
Make ’em think it’s a comedy and play with their mind
And the stars I shall find will grant me peace in due time
I can’t leave when the loathing was so heartfelt
He the only reason I still haven’t killed myself
So with all that being said, I still won’t do shit
I lost all hope to even try to move shit
Suicidal ideation is just nightly tradition
But I’m too tired to pull the fucking knife from the kitchen
So maybe I can stumble myself on a high-rise
A great way to conquer my fear of heights, right?
They’ll cry and grief, maybe say they’ll miss him
But we all die twice and I’m just a statistic

It’s major this time
I gotta be more sophisticated with rhymes
I’m gonna have a few critics hating on lines
It’s major this time
I gotta be more sophisticated with rhymes
I’m gonna have a few critics hating on lines

I don’t see the purpose of being alive
When I feel fucking worthless all the time
Danny’s got me in a suicidal mind
These are the thoughts that I have at
Night

2016

I don’t have too much to say except I love you
And I don’t put much else in this world near or above you
I don’t have too much to say except I love you
And I don’t put much else in this world near or above you

The more things change, the more they stay the same
Phrase permeated through the decade
I met someone who truly takes breaths away
So lemme set the stage, and take y’all back to 7th Grade
Shoutout to Ronald, lifelong friend, we locked in
Helped me come outta my shell when I was boxed in
Besides him? Nobody was that close to me
Until one night, this other guy spoke to me
He said, “Hello, my name is Danny, Christian
Don’t reprimand me, Christian
Eventually, you’ll see me to be above family, Christian
You’ll understand me, Christian
On those long nights, when you wanna hold tight
I’ll finally come in handy, Christian
You’re not my first, but you’re mine for now
This already the age you tryna figure you out
If I have my way? Shoot, I’ll never forget you
I’m just so glad I finally met you ’cause-“

Well, I’m doing fine myself
Thanks for stopping by to help
You need someone else
We already doing really swell
Who’s this we you’re speaking of
Oh, that’s Hanna
Seems like she’s been hell bound
Since we moved to Atlanta
Well, I can do the stealth route
And I won’t tell now
I know y’all fell out
But I’ll have you held down
Also, nobody’s feeling you in real life
Alright, I’m caving, tell me, what’s this deal like
Hopefully this doesn’t come off as a surprise dude
No one’s gonna like you as much as I do
The negative feelings? It was me all along
This your formal introduction for a brand new dawn
I’mma always be here to give you something to whine about
To others a silent mouth, the troubles
Will leave you lying ’round
Have you crying out, “Man
I feel like fucking dying now”
Go ahead and try it out
So I said

KYS

What you know ’bout me
What you, what you know ’bout me
Not a whole lot if I got this note ’bout me
‘Fore I succumb to the hardest of falls
This poem will show I’ll be the smartest of all
King Young Solomon, competition, I’ll ruin them
I’m through with them, I’m boutta treat Buffalo like Jerusalem
I’m ruling over them every time I put the beat on
Way beyond you peons, that’s the shit I be on
Used to spending all night long on my bed
But my mind went crazy, writing bars in my head
I love my fellow rappers, but it needs to be said
Y’all won’t take this crown from me when I’m gone and dead
Suez on the throne, I’m stuck in that bitch
The way I cut and snip tracks, y’all ain’t running with this
Better jumping a cliff you think you fucking with this
Practice makes perfect, bitch, and I’m the youngest of six, so

If I’m going down, I’m taking all of y’all with me
Going under like Whitney, all you haters come get me
Unlike the arms, the flow? You can never harm it
King Young Solomon, I’m Purple incarnate
If I’m going down, I’m taking all of y’all with me
Going under like Whitney, all you haters come get me
Unlike the arms, the flow? You can never harm it
King Young Solomon, I’m Purple incarnate

When I leave this Earth, put respect on my name
Fuck anybody who think I left it with stains
My ex friends I had in the most depressive of states
They’ll still hate but my love will transcend any grave
I’m not tryna name names, I just didn’t move carefully
It turns out my homies actually didn’t care for me
I wanna say fuck you, but that’s untrue
They saw my cycle and decided to get out the loop
Originally at birth, my first had biblical ties
But these scriptures that I write came to me in pivotal times
Cause one night, I had an epiphany
God don’t exist to me
Used the wisdom he gifted me
And now he don’t mean shit to me
There’s no one above me, and I’m used to it son
It’s truthfully fun, and every verse is beautifully done
I’ll tell the haters to tie themselves a noose and get hung
Heavy is my head, I’ll probably let it loose with a gun but

They say the top is lonely, but y’all know that’s a lie right?
Danny by my side guys, and we about to skydive
Excavate my pain like a true gravedigger
And it’s all ”Fuck God” until death starts to whisper
Hurt outta love and my heart’s still bleeding
Maybe that wasn’t needed to be taught in beatings
Cause that wasn’t love talking, that was trauma screaming
I love my parents so much that I fought their demons
But I’m stopping that meeting of misconstrued feelings
Not choosing the healing, but with suicide
To my sisters and brothers, man, I love you guys
One man sharpens another, so I’ll get crucified
Danny finally crossed me as the family mourns
And the crown I wear is transformed to thorns
It’s my dumb decision to go see death
Sincerely yours, Love, Christian and P.S?

GOON

The dopamine will consume
My mind is lost in the goon
I don’t know how long I’ll be down there
I’ll hit up Danny for the aftercare
The dopamine will consume
My mind is lost in the goon
I don’t know how long I’ll be down there
I’ll hit up Danny for the aftercare

Innocence was lost in that back room
That tape that the devil filmed had me vacuumed
I lost a part of myself that day
And I don’t know if that part is coming back soon
Summer 2016 was the time frame
And my mind frame is that I’m lame
And I’m depressed that these girls won’t come my way
But I find way to a website
I seen it before but I ain’t got my head right
So that opens the door
I see another one and another one
Got a gang bang with a bunch of ’em
Every night feeling idolatrous
And I never gotta be monogamous
Crushes don’t wanna touch on me
I just call upon the fuck on me
Hanna’s warped in front of me
And Danny’s here to cuddle me, yee yee

He didn’t care about my age
He saw my face and gave me praise
Said precedent for future days, those times I wish I could erase
And I felt so useless when he took advantage
I was as clueless then and I’m avoiding damage
Perpetuate behaviors that he fucking planted
With guys in my DMs sending me porn
Every la petite mort leaves the consciousness torn
Some might take the visit but I’ll stay addicted
My drug of choice how I weather my storms
Our relationship has me hungry for more
I’m so susceptible to types of genitals
I’m hypersexual, my vice is helpful though
We moving stealthful every night and episode
And I’d rather suffer alone than let you know
Wrong with me
Oh, what’s wrong with me
Oh, what’s wrong with me
Oh, what’s wrong with me

(Wrong with me)
The dopamine will consume
(Oh, what’s wrong with me)
My mind is lost in the goon
(Oh, what’s wrong with me)
I don’t know how long I’ll be down there
(Oh, what’s wrong with me)
I’ll hit up Danny for the aftercare
(Wrong with me)
The dopamine will consume
(Oh, what’s wrong with me)
My mind is lost in the goon
(Oh, what’s wrong with me)
I don’t know how long I’ll be down there
(Oh, what’s wrong with me)
I’ll hit up Danny for the aftercare

DUSK / DAWN

A coward dies a thousand deaths; Heroes die once and own it
That’s why I’ve been cutting myself up until this moment
My mind lost the war, Danny’s overthrown it
Can’t invalidate no more, I got the scars to show it
I didn’t see the selfishness of killing yourself
But everything’s so clear now I’m the lone proponent
All the fear, just stow it, I’m dying alone, it’s
Not the time for tears, you’re gonna just have to hold it
Fight or flight on, were my feelings real?
‘Cause the ocean don’t care ’bout regrets that I feel
I’ll say goodbye to the spouse that I’ll never meet
The weed I didn’t need, my mourning family
This sun’s leaving a glimmer on the prettiest sea
I’m boutta make it dimmer and bittersweet
Time to wither, never was a swimmer undoubtedly
Worst part is
I never did figure out me
I’m sorry

You ever try to kill yourself before
I mean, really try to kill yourself before
I’ve done it once, I’ll do it once more
Hangin’ off my fuckin’ closet door
Cause Danny wants my ass inside a morgue
Let me see what purgatory’s got in store
Cause I’m hungry for a life I can’t afford
Perfecting every lyric, they ain’t near this
Gurjot and Julian, can you hear this?
Catch your happiness through my spirit
As long as I remember, I’ll be fearless
Mural of everyone I loved, some people had a bigger brush
Others will try to paint over but I still gave them exposure
Internal void that I feel inside is insatiable and unsatisfied
Beg and plead my body just to let me cry
Yet I’m staring arid at the night sky
Cause the only way to reach divinity
Porn, weed and cutting, holy trinity
Without the three, why am I alive? Might as well give up and die
And this music shit, what’s the point in it
Feel annoying whenever I’m promoting it
I’m real jealous bout the lack of classics, man
I truly have nothing to show for it, I could eat this up, it won’t be enough
Mad potential, but the mixing spoils it
‘Least he’s havin’ fun and enjoyin’ it
But the stock production’s worse than toilet shit
Man, I’m over it, I’m adoring him, no ignoring him
Time to give him love, real deprived of it, start tryin’ it
Instead of chasin’ folks who denyin’ him
Who I do it for, it’s for younger me
Friends and family, fans who lovin’ me
Anybody else that wanna leave that thinks a grave’ll help find peace
Maybe I’m no savior, man I’m flawed as well
Personally, for me, death won’t save myself
It’s a constant struggle every fucking year
Danny wants me gone, Hanna wants me here
But I’m stayin’ dog, it’s set it stone
Suffering with friends beats dead alone
And I hate myself so much I wanna die
But I love myself enough to stay alive

BUFFALOVE

And you say Nickel City
Gather round, I got a story to tell, B-Lo
The City of Light in the ’70s was a treasure
Two parents took an endeavor to make it even better
Loving McAdoo, lugging a little Bissell attitude
While juggling them good looks that his Daddy do
Wayne Solomon, man was sent from above
He liked cartoons but it was music he loved
Donnie Hath’ and Nat King orotund in that house
But it was Public Enemy and Rakim on the bus
Once McKinley was out, Buff State was in
Steady scratching and cutting, while making those ends
Man stayed employed working for them wages
Movie theater, groceries, whatever, you name it
Exes left? Now his world ain’t done
He had his problems but girls ain’t one
But the lady made up for the lonely time he spent
That’s the one and only Dawn Felice DeWindt

Just the two of us, we can make it if we try
Just the two of us, just the two of us
Just the two of us, building them castles in the sky
Just the two of us, you and I

The oranges and pinks that bring in the morning
Was the basis of her name, in the Bronx she was born in
Bouncing around ‘tween the Boogie Down and the Islands
‘Fore she took the trip to here to start a new life then
Found love, no doves up in the air
With a child of her own, think about moving out of there
But the Union in the Quad led to matrimony
And the boy made a new chapter in her story
He done lit up a spark, she’s at Performing Arts
She’s teaching all these kids and truly left a mark
Saw the vision in these pupils to reach for the stars
And her husband in her life kept her close to his heart
Now that Cambridge Avenue is livelier than ever
With two kids in the crib when the millennium starts
But the city’s now lugubrious, still felt fortuitous
Joy never eluded us, even though it’s

Just the two of us, we can make it if we try
Just the two of us, just the two of us
Just the two of us, building them castles in the sky
Just the two of us, you and I

Millard Fillmore made me, Bennett Park raised me
Head stayed in the clouds, memory’s a little hazy
Do I know what changed me? Maybe the move
Because I like Atlanta, but I love you
So I went to Will North and got a feel for this music
I used it so I can heal more and the fruits of my labor
Weren’t too ripe at first but now it’s peachy keen
Whenever I write a verse, been like ice since birth
I got that Buffalo chill, always stacking my paper
Call that Buffalo Bills, got all this Buffalo skrill
From all my Buffalo skill
Want a city that cares? You know that Buffalo will
Now I’m feeling lovable and I appreciate
My parents for having me and raising me this way
Cambridge Ave to my final wake, it’s comfortable to say
We got ourselves a classic and Buffalo to thank

Just the two of us, we can make it if we try
Just the two of us, just the two of us
Just the two of us, building them castles in the sky
Just the two of us, you and I

OREO

I just wanna rap on this one man
B-Lo
No punch in though
Yo

I was born and wasn’t sure with what black was
I got adored at Montessori, I look back cause
Everyone looked like me, own kind multiplied then
Still never thought I was the product of my environment
City full of sirens, coming in from cycling
I was so nerdy, friends heard me
So I liked them
Got a little taciturn, it really hurt
When we moved down to them ATL ‘burbs
Youthful bliss got adjourned, zapped to reality
And the old me was the lone fatality
Back when I wasn’t treating beats like casualties
Start ’em up in the Basement and end ’em off at Mount Calvary
Nevermind that, got sidetracked, rewind back
I’m black but I wanted to go deny facts
Don’t wanna let ’em in but these thoughts are in my head again
I’m not deserving of working this perfect melanin
Oreo the title, inside though is white folk
And I sure agreed the way I was hitting styro
Mind up in a cyclone, then a light grows
Inside of me, that white came out like vitiligo
Acted too white, was super zealous for true acceptance
I wanted suit and tie, my screwed up mind had me lose my stepping
Then y’all grew jealous, my Yin and Yang’s got me too reckless
Steady tryna box me in, but this ain’t June 2nd
All those stupid times wishing life would end
‘Cause I was not lightskinned, longing for white girlfriends
Stuck in gray area just ’cause i didn’t struggle
Fuck your beady beads Chris, you’re in a suburb bubble
We don’t care ’bout your raps, you don’t tote no Glocks
Those were fireworks you heard, you ain’t never hear shots
It don’t matter ’bout the post traumatic slave in our blood
Funny they say we loot, but they done stole from us
I treat the word like reparations, but they still tryna say it
And be feeling up on my hair, swearing they not racist
Acting like our ancestors’ bodies didn’t soak
Still arguing ’bout bullshit on the sinking boat
But we really all we got, we should all be brethren
Rest in peace to everybody taken by Peyton Gendron
I’m comfortable in my body, honestly loving my hue
I feel like Detroit Red rocking that Buffalo Blue
But I’m not Huey or Bobby, man I’m a hypocrite too
Depends on who you ask, we all got ignorant views
My black card worth more than any AMEX you use
Can’t swipe it away ’cause how I choose to move
And I’m real loud and proud of my skin
But I never let that dictate who I was within
I’m no immortal though or the Oreo they considered
To the rest of my country, maybe I’m just another nigga

2004

I thank you, ooh
I thank you for seeing me through
I feel new, brand new
And I’m happier that you love me too
I thank you, ooh
I thank you for seeing me through
I feel new, brand new
And I’m happier that you love me too
I thank you

Did I grow up or just get older?
War in my mind weighed on my shoulders
Wounds marked my body up just like soldiers
And my soul was Sisyphus with the boulder
The start wasn’t rocky but it got way colder
Always snowballed down, felt like Hell froze over
The pebble of self-love I left alone at the bottom
Didn’t build the way I was ‘posed to
But I got my foundation right, I’m a beacon of light
Now I glow in the dark, you the thief of the night
They my reason for why I’m finally leaving my plight
Your true self taking flight is why I keep in the fight
When I’m used to hatred, it feels conceited and trite
To admit to myself that I love being alive
I’m happy you came through and changed my worldview
So grateful for your presence, so I thank you

I saw you
Every time you did your hair
In the clothes that you wear
Every smile that you made
I heard you
In every song that you sing
Affirmations that you bring
Every laugh that you gave
I felt you
Every hug was from the soul
In every hand that you hold
Every kiss you embraced
I love you
I was jealous from afar
But I still gave you the strength
That made you wanna stay

Get a tighter grip, don’t let me slip now, man
Gotta put in more work to make me stick ’round, man
All them negative feelings got you in a hollow mood
But them four agreements you got, you really don’t follow through
Can’t just swallow all the shrooms, you gon’ wallow in your room
The sorrow will still consume, you don’t need an ego death
This intervention is the key to get rid of the weed
And if you truly love you, you’ll hear me and be free
I want you to know that I missed you so
Danny had a chokehold and he wouldn’t let go
All those sleepless nights of me and him together
Inseparable until the end of never
I know the real you, that wasn’t him
And he’s never ’bout to take control again
Might’ve left you, but I’d never forget you
Still as gorgeous as the day I met you

Get busy
Get get get get (Come on!)
Get get get get (Come on!)
Get get get get (Come on!)
Get get get busy (Come-come)
Get get get get (Come on!)
Get get get get (Come on!)
Get get get get (Come on!)
Get get get busy

I think we got one
Word, if you ain’t got this in your Serato
I don’t know what to tell you man
B-Lo, 26
We out

MORNING

Me and my girl just broke up, I joke much and wrote stuff, but I’m choked up
So what? Other girls thinkin’ I’m hot now
Found the code to happiness during the lockdown
Attention’s so valuable, and I bought lots
Yet that bung another cost, those were the darkest of thoughts
They came and went like seasons, everybody leaves
Always falling out, guess I can’t people please
Gurjot is one with the wind, she movin’ all the trees
I’m clinging on to her memories for as long as I breathe
Missing Mama Nature’s touch, I need her to feel me
Laughing at the wounds cause Papa Time can’t heal these
Kiersten told me not to cut and it’d be hard to cease
Didn’t heed, so now there’s Braille on the arms to read
But one night in December when it was said and done
The beat I made would be the intro to the second one, so

Nothing hurts more than huggin’ a friend
That you know deep down you’ll never see again
Gonna start treatin’ scapegoats like sacrificial lambs
Because I think the problem is just who I am
Walks of shame after I took them on guilt trips
The type to burn a bridge and swim back to the friendship
At least I found Mary Jane so I don’t carry pain
Numbin’ the feelings, no need for Novocain
Desperately want them dead to me, but I’m out of luck
Seems to be the only memories that won’t corrupt
Is this it for me? Forever look that strange
Stainin’ your family name, cause you just can’t change
The sibling love starts to cripple and stagnate
And the blood be thicker than water till it coagulates
But in my down time, the albums on cloud nine
A scowl arises with squinted eyes from all the foul lines

When I started the third, I wanted classic
Something that could shake up the culture
But that was just projection of my pleasing mindset
So just another thing I’d have to get over
I’ve been writing everything as the journey went on
I already had all the beats for the songs
I could’ve made this thing months after my second timepiece
I just needed the words to truly match my psyche
It’s the clearest day, and I’m here to stay
All the tears from hate feel like years away
Boos and jeers I hear are Danny callin’ for me
Too much cheer and praise, he’ll never take back lead
Never win a Grammy, no renamed streets
Made strides within, and that’s my biggest feat
Drag me down to sea, I’m too firm on land
But I’ma be okay, I always am

Can I talk my shit again
Can I talk my shit again
One more time, one more time, how’s it go

Stuff gon’ suck, just keep your head up
Ignore these fools, don’t ever let up
Romanticize the past ’cause your present’s abhorrent
Even if today sucks, there’s another morning
Stuff gon’ suck, just keep your head up
Ignore these fools, don’t ever let up
Romanticize the past ’cause your present’s abhorrent
Even if today sucks, there’s another morning
Stuff gon’ suck, just keep your head up
(They can’t do what we do, baby)
Ignore these fools, don’t ever let up
Romanticize the past ’cause your present’s abhorrent
Even if today sucks, there’s another morning
Stuff gon’ suck, just keep your head up
Ignore these fools, don’t ever let up
Romanticize the past ’cause your present’s abhorrent
Even if today sucks, there’s another morning

Look
Was stuck in the labyrinth, lost in the maze
Life is a bitch, but every dog has his day
From birth to now, I ain’t embarrassed to me
Cause it’s apparent to see, that was the best it could be
I don’t have to go to church to spend time with the Reverend
My life’s a sanctuary if my mind is a heaven
If you don’t know who I am, please refer to the following
Nice to meet you, my name is Christian Solomon

I love you